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Do you ever feel happy about something but after the long run, you don't feel anything anymore?

I was so happy and excited when I tried writing my first ever fanfic. I had all these ideas occupying my head and I just couldn't wait to write it down. I wrote and wrote. I didn't really dwell on how many read it. My main goal was to tell the story that I have. I just added whatever I like and surprisingly, it got good feed backs.

I wrote and wrote. Each time I did an update, I get so excited. It was like an achievement for me. Each time I did, I felt good. Everything was fine. Great even, until one day, that overwhelming feeling disappeared and I couldn't feel anything anymore. Where it went, I don't really know. I started doubting a lot of things that time and up until now to be honest. But I wasn't sad. I just feel nothing. Being numb and sad are two different things.

I just hope that that feeling decides to come back. No, it has to come back. It feels empty. I feel empty.

Wherever you are, please come back.

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coffeelatteleo #1 Jan 7, 2016 00:06:52

Don't worry. That 's just a phase. For sure that feeling of excitement when writing something will come back. Will continue to support you no matter what. :)