important?

I don't think many of you will read this but I'm thinking of taking a 2 month break from AFF, meaning none of my stories will be updated until july. 

I've lost a lot of motivation in doing so and I feel as though my style in writing is becoming repetitive and boring. 

I probably seem like I'm being ungrateful although I don't really know how to express this feeling.

Like, I just want to put everything on hiatus and disappear for a while. 

I'm not giving enough time for school and the time I have towards my finals is decreasing and it feels like a major burden on me...

I guess it's a mixture of depression, stress and anxiety all molded into one and it's starting to really get to me and the pressure I receive from writing well for my readers is just added on and I'm always conscious of petty things like spelling mistakes and repeating things and just not being good enough. 

I sound crazy. 

Maybe the midnight feels have gotten to me lol 

But seriously though, I'm not really satisfied with the ways things are going and I'm actually considering to take a really long break from writing but only visit to keep myself updated on my favorite on going stories. 

I'll keep you guys updated if I change my mind /ugly sobs/

Good night x

-Jaerae

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Shikaieru
#1
Sorry I don't have much to say. But I do have some love for you :)

<3
callmecarla
#2
Ooh... The most important thing is you to be happy. Saying thaat... I will really miss your stories. I always re download the page to see if you updated. Is kind of sad not to have your writing, but of course you have to be happy with your life and feel full. Try to relax, and eat well! For depression omega 3 fish oil supplement is good the doc says, maybe you can search!! Maybe sound silly but sometimes the lack of some vitamims and stuff make a difference in our brain. Of course also a more relax life.
Be well! I will be miss you big time.
Planetariums #3
It's okay to take a break! Everyone needs one eventually and it's quite understandable when you're near the end of your school year. Remember to enjoy your life because you'll ever experience being at that age once so make it worth it! I hope you slay all your exams and come back more refreshed and relieved. Hwaiting!! *-*)9
whae1234 #4
Don't let the stress kill your mind LOL take a break to enjoy your life and get ready for your finals. Its more important!!! ^^goodluck n see you again until next update
zZSleepyHead #5
I really respect you as an author. I think your writing is never boring and sometimes I think you surprise me too muchLOL which is always a good thing. You make me laugh, cry, angry just by writing and i appreciate that. Without my daily source of writing, the rest of my life is just super mundane. Seriously.

I just want to let you know that the overwhelming majority of us absolutely enjoy your writing, and if you like or love writing- then why the heck not?!?!? I'd hate that find out if there is anyone who is critiquing your work. You do this for free and for fulfillment- like you're not getting paid so it doesn't even matter if your readers love it or hate it. I mean like most of us on here haven't even graduated highschool yet, and so small mistakes are bound to be made. We understand. It's just douchebags being up 'emselves commenting; "it's " there" not "their" ". Like , so what? #rantoff

I think what I enjoy the most from you is your prominent English accent in your writing. When I'm reading the characters, all of a sudden they sound super intelligent LOL

Losing your passion is a horrible feeling, I know, and so I hope you find your drive again. Your finals are up, don't let the nerves get the best of you. I wish you all the best! <3 you'll do amazing! xx
Hunhan10188 #6
Judging by your condition what you really need right now is a good rest.Im pretty sure others will understand that your health is the most important right now.No one will blame you for taking a hiatus so just take as long as you want.Just get well soon quick and come back^^ 언니힘내세요
Ziamyeol #7
Do what do you need to! Take as long as you need, your health comes first! Fighting :3
Mariaree
#8
If that it's what you need, you should do it.

I hope you feel better soon and that everything would be ok for you :)
NaDaeHyun #9
I really do like the way you write, I'm sure a lot of people do as well so don't feel pressured by this but take it as something that can give you strength ^^ for now keep your mind on school and exams, try to focus on that and don't worry too much, we'll be waiting :)
Hayaley #10
Time off is always good. Hope you feel better in a few months.
ThoseWithGlassHearts #11
Take as long as you need; rushing yourself won't do any good. Hwaiting!
ShadyOn
#12
Do what you need to! We'll be waiting ^^
daeyumjae
#13
do what you need to! we'll all still be here when you get back~ i hope everything goes okay^^
lovelyairi
#14
Take a break if you feel you need one ^^ take some time for yourself. I hope you de-stress a lil and feel better ♡
stardrop
#15
take all the time you need for your updates :) and if you feel the feels again, you can come back and finish your stuff! A bit of distance can always be great