My pen, writing eagerly 
My heart, beating bitterly 
My words, the same meaning

I write down all my sadness
Slowly driven into this madness

Oh dear God
Lest I fall victim to vanity 
I shatter my mirrors 
And pretend I'm happy 
With the way I look 
Or feel 

Everything is deteriorating
Derealization kills me 
Before I get the chance 
To kill myself first