hiiii

i just want to do a personal rant because idk where/who to rant at. plus no one is gonna read this

i feel really lonely.

like i have a lot of friends and i have so much fun with them

but sometimes ill feel lonely when im with them ???

i went out to a fball game tonight without my best friend and thats where i started feelin the "lonelyness" just because she didnt wanna go to the game cause she wanted to be with her boyfriend. which i understand because she's in love and has been working the whole day and wants to spend her night with her bby (hahah 'bby') its just like oh she has someone more important. you knoow? like, i dont have a person in my life that i can truly say that we our each other's "firsts." and its just a lonely feelinnnnnng.

the worst thing is feeling second place, ya know. and i dont like sharing these feeligs with people because i feel like im overrreactin. and i probably am. so i just kidna go with the flow on things. i wanna be close with someone, ya know. thats not related to me (sorry izzi<33). i want someone i can literally tell things to. i want someone to truly appreciate me. :( 

I FEEL SO STUPID FOR RANTING HERE IM SORRY

i feel better though~ i need to dance tbh, that always helps me.

plsu im doing really well in school!! im happy about that. i should be happy and not spend my time sad !!

ok bye!!