7 years ago : South Korea

[Boo’s]

I was crying with my head on the desk and my hands on the keyboard. I felt really sad and frustrated now. I don’t even know what I should do. This was once a lifetime offer. I can’t let this go easily. I sighed loudly when somehow I was able to stop crying. I raised my head and wiped my tears. I looked over the clock and it’s already midnight. I stood up from my chair and walked to the bathroom. I looked at my teribble reflection in the mirror. I gasped at my own reflection. ‘Oh my god! You look like freaking grim reaper.’ I sighed and opened the tap before washing my face. I walked out from there and went to the kitchen to drink some water. My throat was sore from all the crying and I don’t even drink a drop of water at dinner , earlier.

I opened the fridge and took a bottle of water before gulped it. I was crying when I finished the water. ‘Why are you so freaking delicious?’ I threw the bottle in the dustbin and wiped my tears. Why the hell are you crying over water?! I walked upstairs and opened the bedroom’s door. I saw Seungcheol was sleeping with his documents scattered around the bed. I sighed and walked over him before arranged the documents. I walked to the closet and took out my pillow and blanket. I put the them on the couch before walking towards the switch. I’m about to switch off the lamps when Seungcheol called my name. I turned around and stared at him. ‘What?’ I asked coldly. ‘Why are you sleeping on the couch?’ He asked before sitting down and rubbing his eyes. ‘Because I don’t want to sleep there with you beside me.’ He sighed.

I crossed my arms and looked at him. ‘Why are sighing? It should be me , who sighing.’ He glanced at me before looked at his hands. ‘Fine. You can go.’ I stared at him with my eyes widen. ‘Go where exactly? Go out? Go die? Go to hell? Which one?’ He looked at me. ‘I'm letting you go to Edinburgh as you wish for. And I will support everything. Just do your best , okay?’ I gasped and closed my mouth with my hands to cover my screams. I walked towards him. ‘Are you serious?! Like for real?!’ He nodded. ‘Oh my god!’ I hugged him tightly. ‘Oh my god! Thank you so much! I love you!’ He patted my back slowly. ‘I think we should sleep.’ I came back to my sense and released him from the hug. ‘I…I’m going to switch off the lamps.’ I walked away from him. ‘Seungkwan.’ I turned around. ‘Yeah?’ He stared at me. Did he just took my soul away with his stare? ‘Love me , then.’

Present – 2016 : Pledis Medical Center

He told me to love him and he don’t even contacted me for god knows how long. Look! I don’t even know he was on business trip. I don’t eve