Chapter 3
UNTITLEDDara's POV
I can't be here. I don't want to be here anymore. I can not look at him without breaking down. I need to leave.
I wiped my tears, grabbed my purse and hurried out. Not bothering to hear what he was gonna say. Not bothering to look back. He's gonna come after me to say sorry. He's gonna feel pity. The boring girlfriend is crying. He's gonna try to comfort me and I do not want any of that. I need to keep my pride. My dignity. Maybe that's the only thing that's left of me.
I rushed to the parking and got in my car. Do not cry. I tell myself. Not yet. Not while I'm still in his property. Not if there's a slight chance he'll run after me and see me. Please run after me, Jiyong! A part of my brain screamed - RUN AFTER ME. FIGHT FOR ME. But a part of my brain, the part that wants none of his pity tells me to drive. Drive away. Do not look back. So that's what I did. I drove off until I'm positive I'm far enough and that's when I allowed myself to cry. To cry the tears I've been holding for the past few months. I cried the exhaustion from trying to cling to a relationship I knew well in advance was dying. I cried relief. Relief, that it's finally ended. Because as much as I love Jiyong, i knew for a few months now that the spark has died and forcing myself to him was tiring and sad. Very sad.
I didn't know how long I drove around or how I ended up here, but the next thing I know, I was in front of Tabi's apartment. I battled with myself if I should bother anyone with this pain. Maybe I should head home. Maybe crying in bed was what I needed. Maybe it's best if no one knew about this and I can just forget the chapter in my life with Jiyong ever existed. It's not like a lot of people knew anyway.. As I was talking to myself I didn't notice someone approaching until I heard a soft knock on my window. Tabi. Looking worried. He must have seen me crying. I let the window down and looked at him.
'Tabi..'
'Come on, let's park your car so you can come inside and talk.'
I didn't move. I stared at him blankly. Unsure if I wanted to even be with someone tonight. Unsure if the events that happened today are even real to begin with. But I can feel the pain. The ache in my chest. And slowly, without realizing, tears has already formed in my eyes and I didn't dare say a word, afraid of breaking down in front of my trusted friend. I felt Top lean over to remove my seatbelt and gently guide me out of my car. I followed him as he lead me to his apartment building lobby. 'Stay there, I'll be back in a bit' I nodded my head then look at him run to my car and drive. I looked out until the car disappeared from sight. He must have taken him to the underground parking. I was still looking out when i felt a hand hold my elbow and direct me to the elevator. I didn't need to look up,
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