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PUBLISHRD : 15 APRIL 2022

EDITED : 4 NOVEMBER 2023

Seulgi ran like her life depended on it, piece by piece, her thick clothes were taken off, and then she dove into the cold lake.

It feels like there are millions of needles piercing her skin, the cold makes her legs go numb, but Joohyun's life is threatened.

If she was late, if she was late even a second, she could lose Joohyun forever.

She struggles to pull Joohyun towards the land. Joohyun was heavily trembling due to the cold as she coughed up water.

Seulgi was scared, she thought she would lose Joohyun. But at this time, she couldn’t let her emotions take over. Trying her best to take off Joohyun's clothes since they're all wet and cold, it going to bring Joohyun's temperature down. ‘Wear my clothes!’

Seeing Joohyun puff the cold air, shivering.

Joohyun wanted to protest because Seulgi also got into the cold water, thanks to her stupidity, but the cold made Joohyun's lips freeze, so she just complied with her wife's order. She prays that her heart won’t cause trouble. She did feel the tightness and the numbness on her right side, but she brushes it off, thinking it was just the cold.

Joohyun can't feel her feet, she loses some sense because of how freezing it is.

With Joohyun trembling and shivering in the passenger seat, Seulgi drove as fast as she could. The cold almost killed them on the spot, and the car heater and seat warmer didn’t do much justice. It took them only ten minutes to get back to the cabin.

Joohyun is kind of scared of how fast Seulgi drives.

Seulgi didn’t say anything, she scooped Joohyun right away and dashed towards the bathroom. She placed Joohyun inside the bathtub, and the other hand quickly the hot water.

‘It’s the fastest way.’ Seulgi explained.

Joohyun nodded, she knew Seulgi was trying to bring her body temperature back to normal. Her breathing fastens, and Joohyun's hands clutch her left chest.

No Joohyun, not now

Joohyun closes her eyes, trying to calm her heart. Slowly, she took a breath and let out a breath through her pursing lips. The breathing technique that was taught to her. Seulgi can’t know about her condition.

‘Joohyun.’

She opened her eyes.

‘We should go to the hospital.’

Seulgi was about to turn off the shower when Joohyun reached out, stopping her.

‘Joohyun, we didn’t even bring your meds here.’

‘I’m – fine.’ She reassured. ‘ju – just stay here – with me.’ She tugged at Seulgi's arm. She wants Seulgi close to her. ‘Your – warmness – will help me.’

She knows that it is another way to help Joohyun's body temperature when she removes her final piece of wet clothes and gets into the bathtub. Hugging Joohyun from behind, she let her wife snuggle into her embrace.

Seulgi tries her best to blow hot air on Joohyun's bare shoulder, covering her wife's ears. Rubbing her palm on Joohyun's cold skin

‘I thought I lost you, Joohyun.’ She mutters under her breath. She was so scared about the thought of losing Joohyun back at the lake.

Joohyun reached out to cup Seulgi's face and said, ‘I am here Seulgi.’ She stared into those monolid eyes, part of her hoping this moment would last forever where Seulgi held her close.

Joohyun wonders if it is okay for her to be greedy.

Forehead pressed, their hot breath heating each other faces, and Joohyun lean in for a kiss. She doesn’t know if her lips tremble because of the cold or because of what her wife is doing.

Sitting on the tool, Joohyun let Seulgi dry her hair. That hairdryer blowing out hot steam helped her. She is not shivering like before, the numbness is gone, but her chest remains tight.

With her utmost care, Seulgi ran her finger through Joohyun's hair, making sure it was completely dry.

Joohyun's eyes are fixated on their reflection in the mirror, while Seulgi is adorable in a bathrobe. Because she is so concentrated on drying Joohyun's hair, her brows are furrowed. Joohyun then smiles, her arms wrapping around Seulgi's waist as she leans her head on it. embracing Seulgi, who is looking down at her.

‘I want to do it too.’

Seulgi nodded, and Joohyun turned to dry her hair.

Hurdled up in front of fireplaces, Joohyun watched from afar Seulgi, who was trying to cook ramen.

This is really an escaped place, Seulgi looks like a different person here. Joohyun never thought of her wife as a thoughtful person. She doesn't want to return for whatever reason. She would rather they remain here, apart from the dreadful truth.

Joohyun knows that once they reach Seoul, Seulgi will return to her usual self. She saw the look in Seulgi's eyes; it was not that hard to read … This is just an escape.

‘We should stay here for another day.’ Seulgi suggested getting comfortable on the couch, not in the mood to start the car and drive back to Seoul.

A lot is waiting for her in Seoul. The problem she causes, her family, and then Seungwan. She hasn’t her phone since she arrived here. Seulgi knows Seungwan will be upset, but she just wants to clear her head for a moment.

She needs to be away from Seungwan to know her feelings. What is it that she has been feeling towards Joohyun.

What should she do with Seungwan, how is she going to announce that she is married and, Seulgi sigh, she can’t even say the word in her head.

She knows she needs to wait until Seungwan finishes the exam, but what should she do in between … act clueless about the upcoming … breaking up or giving Seungwan everything in the remaining months.

Both options sound so unfair to Seungwan.

‘We can’t stay, we have a meeting with board members tomorrow to sum up this year's business.’

Seulgi's eyes shift to Joohyun, who spills the bitter reality.

‘I want to stay here too, but your father won’t like it if you don’t show up at the office after what happened.’

Seulgi knows that, Joohyun doesn’t need to remind her.

Bae Joohyun. Will it be fair to Joohyun too, Her decision about keeping her relationship with Seungwan … Does her decision do justice to any of the women?

It won’t be fair to anyone. Seulgi knows that.

The journey back to Seoul was quiet, Seulgi didn’t speak through the entire ride. So Joohyun thought Seulgi was back to her usual self, where they were just spouses on paper. Nothing more than that.

Joohyun wonders, do these past days mean nothing now –

‘What is it in that head?’

Joohyun turned to look at Seulgi, staring back at her with a soft gaze. She didn’t expect Seulgi to talk.

‘I am curious to know.’ Seulgi teased, smiling at a flustered Joohyun, but she was curious about Joohyun's thoughts.

Joohyun simply observes Seulgi as she rotates her neck in a circular motion. She is probably tired, and the muscles must grow stiff now. Seulgi has been driving for two hours straight.

Hand reaching out to massage Seulgi nape, she can feel Seulgi lean into her touch.

‘Do you want me to drive?’ She asked only to witness how Seulgi's eyes went wide.

'No!' she said, shaking her head furiously.

‘Fine.’ Joohyun pouted, slapping Seulgi's chest, and there was no more massage for Seulgi. She hardly ever drives. Instead, if she needs to go somewhere, their driver usually takes her.

She caught Joohyun's hand and brought it to her lips. Seulgi kissed the woman's knuckles, flashing a smile. ‘You still didn’t answer my question.’ Then Seulgi rests their intertwined hands on her laps. Seulgi didn’t let it go. ‘What were you thinking about?’

‘Nothing.’ Avoiding Seulgi's gaze, Joohyun glanced at their joined hands. Is she currently afraid of what will occur tomorrow. Is she afraid that Seulgi will change, or is she afraid that Seulgi will abandon her.

There is a divorce coming up, Joohyun didn’t forget that one, of course … will Seulgi still want a divorce to happen.

The fact that Seulgi was able to cause Joohyun to experience the terror she had always feared caused her to swallow her weighty thoughts. Joohyun wants to prevent this as much as possible. The anxiety she felt over losing a loved one... not simply someone, its Kang Seulgi.

‘hey’

Joohyun felt Seulgi squeezing her hand.

‘I don’t know what it is, but it’ll be alright, okay?’ Seulgi brings their joined hands togethe