This Weird Feeling
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the author's note~
and again... here is another oneshot shared from the past!
and again... this story was based upon a letter i wrote for a
different celebrity. this was shared on SOOMPI in 2011 of
December, but the actual letter was written on the 17th of
July of 2011... and so somewhere in between is where i kind
of just... turned it into a story. of course i changed the original
celebrity into another celebrity, that celebrity being Sulhu of
X-5, and again i asked my sister, and she chose him. so this
one and Fluttering Feelings were written around the same time
of one another. anyways... for this story, the letter i didn't send
to the real one, and just kept to myself. along with the original
contents. it has not been shared. the only thing shared is a
revised and edited one. so here this one is. anyways, this was
written because at that time, i felt like i needed to aplogize to
that celebrity about... well, not sure, but i guess my behavior as
a fan. i dunno, but deep inside me, i just felt like i really needed
to apologize. even though i knew this wouldn't be sent to him,
but still, it helped my heart to just... feel less guilty and burden.
the only reason i seem to think this way, was because i was able to
interact with him, again with other fans involve, but still, i had an
opportunity to communicate with him and his fellow members at that
time, he even responded to my tweets too. so.. in a way, i felt a bit
connected and closer, just because before debut, i was able to
communicate before official debut and other things took over and
he and his other members wouldn't be able to do this anymore.
anyways, it wasn't a love-love kind of relationship, it was a friendly
one. he made an effort to interact with us fans to make us happy,
and he was like catering to our needs, but because of that, it felt like
we were always anticipating him to do that, it may have made him feel
burden for him to well... try to please us, and make us happy, even
though us fans were like... not satisfied with that or something. we
craved for more attention, and so... in a way, some fans took this
opportunity for granted and wanted more than what was offered.
and i realized when that happen that one night of interacting...
that... i shouldn't be like that. i should just have just kept calm,
which i did, but others weren't, and so... i felt like i should have
taken the blame as well, since i knew that most of the other fans
wouldn't, because they wouldn't understand or at least comprehend
from the celebrity's point of view. anyways... this why i wrote that
letter, and now... i cherish the memories and moments i was able to
have stumble upon and keep it really close to me, because i know that...
i won't ever get the same chance again, because times have changed...
and so do people. i have grown from that incident, but i wish i was a bit
more mature in that sense... but hey... we all mature and grow at different
pace, it's only counts when you actually take notice of your own actions
and give... well celebrities their space because they are human, and they
cannot cater to everyone, because they are just human... and so remember that.
anyways... i tagged them as X-5, although they have disbanded, and Sulhu,
along with Taefung and Haewon have formed a new group as Lu:kus.
Ghun went to serve his military duty, and i dunno what happen to ZIN. T^T
Foreword
-The story within this account of [LuminousStardust] -along with other usernames that I go by - is a work of Fiction. The events and characters are fictional or out of character, and the celebrity names/images merely borrowed and do not represent who the celebrity is in real life. No offense is intended towards them, their families or friends.
-© [miss_vicky@SOOMPI] 2011. All rights reserved. Distribution of any kind is prohibited without the written consent of [miss_vicky@SOOMPI].
POSTER CREDITS: to me, lol.
BG CREDITS: CandySu@SOOMPI
at SOOMPI i'm miss_vicky, at xfivestar, which was a forum for X-5 i was charmxcheer, but sadly i don't visit the forum that much...
and i believe that the forum has disappeared now. T^T
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