I remember it clearly; you were crying because you were hurt, right.. Jaejae? Tell me again, what was the reason for your precious tears to fall? I still remember what happened to us.. Was it my fault, and mine alone?

You never were fond of fights. But I was heartless enough to punish you for nothing. I had been hitting you more frequently than everyday. How were you able to love me for the last 4 years? I was the thorn and you still tried to hold on; you got hurt trying to love me. Why was it that I was the one who was causing you more pain? Your soft hair, addicting milky-white skin, angelic voice, everything that simply drove me crazy; you had it. 

Love that can't be comapred to others, you showed that to me. But why am I the thorn? I would hurt you every time of everyday. Why am I cruel? Why is it that you're always crying whenever I'd hit you? Why wouldn't you just leave? Why did you hold on to our crumbling relationship? Didn't you say you'd leave the first time I had hit you? But why did you stay for 4 more years? You were my everything, or so I thought.

How could I manage to cheat right before your eyes? You were crying, but you didn't show it. You didn't want to cry in front of Himchan; you were too stubborn to let those tears fall. You didn't cry when I got home after a few weeks, either. You were, in fact, so happy that it looked like you'd just die from happiness. Jaejae, why weren't you crying then? Were you too tired of crying ove