Title: Forget Me Not
Author: Yunshi Himura
Pairings: YunJae, YunRa
Genre: Drama
Length: One Shot
Disclaimer: I wish I could own Jaejoongie but sadly I only own the plots and story
Summary: Yunho is married, but why did Jaejoong forget him?

“Wow, oppa. It’s so beautiful here,” Ara says with sparkled in her eyes.

Yunho smiles as he wraps his arms around Ara’s waist from behind. “But you’re prettier.”

Ara hit Yunho’s arm playfully, embarrassed. The man chuckles as he tightens his hold. The couple enjoys themselves watching the beautiful garden from their room. They’re currently on a short vacation to the hot spring at the countryside. The view here is breathtaking, and the hot spring is good to cure tired and sickness. But sadly, not many people know about the place. That’s why there’s not much visitors there.

The inn is build with two wings. The east wing is where the rooms are located, with the doors face the lake garden in the middle. The west wing is where the hot springs are, divided into three; for male, female, and uni.

The lake garden is really pretty. With the greenest, the birds chirping, the clear water, and the fish, you can relax your mind too without bathe in the hot spring. All in all, it is worth it to leave your works at the office and run away to have some short holiday with family here.

And that is what Yunho is doing right now. He just wants to calm his mind and tiredness, with his pretty wife in his arms and beautiful garden in front of his eyes. Until something, or someone caught his attention.

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“Yunho, what you want for our anniversary?” Jaejoong asks his lover who arms wrap around his chest.

“Huh? I don’t want anything, as long as you’re here with me,” Yunho replied cheekily.

“Really?” Jaejoong his head slightly to look at Yunho behind him. “Then I will be with you, by your side forever.”

Yunho smiles. He plants a soft kiss on Jaejoong’s lips as he tightens his arms around the man.

“I love you, Yunho,”

“And I love you so much more, Jaejoong. I love you so much,” Yunho says between kisses on Jaejoong’s face; his chin, his nose, his eyebrows.

Jaejoong giggles until the other stop. “I will buy you that watch then,”

“Huh?” Yunho lift his head to the TV.

Oh, yeah. They’re watching television together when Jaejoong suddenly asks about the anniversary. Roger Federer is on the commercial break, modelling a new watch from Rolex.

Yunho’s eyes widen from the cf. “Jaejoong, it’s too expensive,”

“It’s not cheap so I can’t buy it for you?” Jaejoong pouts.

“It’s not that, love.” He kiss Jaejoong’s hair. “I don’t want you to waste your money for that. It will cost your salary for all your live,”

“Even it will cost me until I die, I want to buy something for you, something that even can’t buy my love for you.”

Once again, Yunho’s lips found its favourite place, Jaejoong’s lips. “If you insist, I will buy you those earrings.”

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“Jaejoong?” he mumbled.

“Huh? What was it, oppa?” Ara tilted her head, looking into her husband’s eyes.

But Yunho too distract by the man in the garden to realize that his wife talking to him. The man standing on the bridge at the lake, with his head low, might be watching the running fishes. His hair falls into his face, making it hard for Yunho to see. But Yunho sure, the man is indeed Kim Jaejoong, the one he once loved.

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“Why? I thought you love me!” Jaejoong scream at his boyfriend.

“I do love you, Jaejoong. But...it’s complicated,” Yunho sighs.

“How is it complicated? If you love me, you won’t agree to marry her.”

Tears fall into Jaejoong’s face. He doesn’t get it. His lover, the love of his live that he treasures the most, who claim to be with him for the rest of his life, choose to break up with him just to get married to a woman.

“I have to, Jaejoong. You know appa will disown me if I didn’t agree to marry her,” Yunho try to protected himself.

Silent. Jaejoong feel his heart drop at the second. Tears flowing without stop, he ignored it, didn’t bother to wipe it off. His body shaking. His hands sweaty.

“Disown you? You’re worried that your family disown you?” Jaejoong asks, didn’t believe himself.

“Jaejoong...” Yunho sighs. Why is it so hard to talk to the pretty man?

“So what if your family disown you?” Jaejoong scream his heart out. “My family disown me, they hate me, they don’t admit I’m their son anymore, they don’t want to see my face, they thought I’m already dead; just because I choose you over them. I want to be with you and I don’t care if I lose them.”

A sigh escape Yunho’s lips once again. His eyes still lock into the dark night from the window. “It is not same with that,”

“How is that not same?” Jaejoong never once low his voice. “If I can live without my family, why can’t you?”

Yunho fist his knuckles, hard. He will get married soon, with a woman his parents choose. He hopes Jaejoong would understand him, and they can break up easily, and everything would be fine. But no. Jaejoong choose to shout and scream at him since he told his soon-to-be ex-lover about the news.

And to top with that, Yunho doesn’t see and doesn’t care the tears running on Jaejoong’s flawless cheeks.

“Stop it, Jaejoong!” Yunho shout finally and turns his head toward the other. “Stop it. You can live without your family but I can’t,”

“Why can’t you?”

“I need my family, I need my parents; they give birth to me, love me. I can’t abandon them just like that,” Yunho tries to reason out.

“You just need their money, Yunho. I can love you with all my heart,”

“Your love is not enough, Jaejoong,”

“What...?”

“I need a family; a wife, kids. A happy and loving family of my own. But you can’t give me that.”

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“Jaejoong!” A tall man called as he neared the other man.

The other lifts his head and look at the new intruder. Yunho’s heart skips a beat when he realizes that the man on the bridge is indeed Kim Jaejoong. His arms lose on their own. Ara looks at him but he ignored it. From his position, he saw the tall man talk to Jaejoong and they exchange warm smiles.

Didn’t know why but Yunho feels anger within him seeing Jaejoong smiles so oh lovingly to someone else. Wait. Why he has the feeling? Jaejoong is no longer his to begin with. But why his heart feels hot and boiling? He is not jealous, is he?

“Jaejoong...” The name rolled off his tongue so smoothly in a mere whisper.

Yunho startled when the said Jaejoong turns his head to his direction. His arms fall to his side, no longer holding his wife. Is Jaejoong seen him? Will Jaejoong come here? Would Jaejoong be happy?

But Yunho’s heart crump into pieces when Jaejoong give him cold shoulder and turns around to the taller man. As if he didn’t know him.

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“How’s life?”

“Fine,”

“How’s Ara?”

“Fine,”

“You must be so happy then,”

“...”

“Yunho...”

“What do you want?”

Silence fills the office room. Yunho’s cold replies startled Jaejoong to no end. Never did in their relationship that Yunho talk to him like that. Guess everything had change. Yunho had change too since he’s married. He changed from a man that love to a man that hate him.

Why are you like this? Do you hate me that much? Aren’t we agreed to still be friend? Am I not enough of your friendship too?

Jaejoong want to ask him those. He didn’t want to lose Yunho as a friend either, since they’ve been friends for a long time. He can’t lose Yunho. He needs Yunho.

“I just want to see you,”

Silence. Yunho ignored him as he continues to do his work. He never once lifts his head to look at Jaejoong. As if he invisible in the room and that is the sound from radio nagging.

“Are you free tonight? Let’s...”

“I’m busy,” he replied without waiting for Jaejoong to finish.

Hurt clearly paints on the pretty face, but still unnoticed by the other man. Not as if he cares anyway. Jaejoong shakes his head, trying to smile still.

“Just for tonight, Yunho. Please.”

For the first time since Jaejoong is in his room, Yunho lift his head. “What part of ‘I’m busy’ you didn’t understand?”

“I...I understand,” he stammered. “But please, Yunho. Just for tonight,”

“I don’t have time for you.” He lowered his head to the file on the table again.

“Just a short dinner, Yunho. Only for tonight,” Jaejoong still didn’t give up.

Once again Yunho look at him. Flame clearly shown in his eyes. “I’m busy, I can’t go out and I don’t want to see you ever again.”

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Yunho stand still with his back lean on the wall outside of the toilets; waiting for his wife doing business. His arms circled in front of his chest. His eyes stare into blankness. His mind fills with a certain beauty that won’t leave him since he saw him earlier. His heart beat faster than ever.

He’s Jaejoong, right? I know it’s him. I’m sure. But why did he act as if he doesn’t know me?

Yunho really want to go and meet Jaejoong, to confront him. It’s been so long since he saw the other. How he miss him.

Wait a second.

Yunho startled by his own thought. Where did it come from? Since when that he miss Jaejoong? True, it’s been so long since they’ve saw each other. And it is him who chooses to avoid him whenever Jaejoong try to talk to him or see him or contact him. It is not Jaejoong’s fault if he is the one who choose to ignore him this time. Right?

A sigh escaped his lips. “What is wrong with me?” he mumbled as he mess with his hair.

He turns to his left when he feels someone coming closer, only to have a second shock in an hour. Jaejoong walks alone in bathrobe toward his direction. His eyes straight forward, never did he take a glance to anyone at the hallway. If he didn’t admit that he’s feeling hurt, it is sure a lie. When Jaejoong just walk pass him, Yunho can’t take it anymore. He pulls the other arm, turns him around to face him.

Jaejoong widen his eyes, startled. He tilted his head to the side. His eyes blink innocently. Confused as to why this man suddenly stop him. He’s not a , is he?

Yunho stare deeply into Jaejoong’s eyes. He too confused with the other action. Jaejoong is indeed look shock, but he sure not because of meeting him. Something different, something is definitely not right with the pretty male.

“Jaejoong?” he starts first.

“Huh?”

“Jaejoong, it’s been so long since I saw you. How have you been?” he tries to sound cheerful.

“Huh?”

“Jaejoong?”

Silence.

Yes. Definitely not right.

“Jaejoong, you don’t remember me?”

“Uh...who are you?”

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Jaejoong stood outside, waiting for someone to open the gate. Not long after that, the gate opened, reveal a middle aged woman. Jaejoong smiles in relive. But before he can open his mouth, the woman slams the gate in front of his face.

“Umma!” Jaejoong called with his hand knock the gate. “Umma, open the gate, please. Umma.”

No answer. Jaejoong could hear footstep faded away.

“Umma! Please. Please open the gate, let me in. Umma. Umma!” he cried.

He didn’t know how long he calls for his mother. He didn’t seem tired nor does he crack his voice. He just calls non-stop, hoping that his mother will feel sorry for him and open the gate. Later on, a woman not older than Jaejoong walks to the house. She looks surprise at first seeing him but choose to ignore him as well.

“Noona!” Jaejoong call her.

“Don’t call me nonna,” she spat at him.

Jaejoong shut his mouth as he bowed his head. “I’m sorry.”

She circled her arms in front of her chest. “What do you want?”

“I want to see umma and appa, and you guys,”

“See us?” she snorts. “Are you kidding me? Why would we want to see you?”

“Noona...”

“Don’t call me noona. I don’t have a brother like you,”

“I’m...I’m sorry. Noona...”

“Sorry won’t change anything, Jaejoong. Leave this place. We don’t want to see you ever again. To us, you already died.”

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Hot spring should be able to relax the tiredness and calm your mind. But why did Yunho never feels anything since he got in here? Oh, right. That’s because of a certain beauty bathe in the same pool with him, and sit comfortable with the tall man from earlier in front of him.

There’s no anyone else, just the three of them. The pool is big enough and the room is closed with walls. Even if you talk normally, your voice will echo around the room. It is not call ears dropping. Right?

“Why are we here?” Jaejoong asks the tall man beside him.

“To take a bath,”

“A bath in a hot pool?”

The man smiles. “Not hot pool, Jaejoong. It’s a hot spring.”

Jaejoong’s lips form a perfect O shape, cutely. “What is a hot spring?”

Yunho feels nervous. He heard them talk and he doesn’t like it one bit. Jaejoong ask like a curious little kid and innocent one as well. He asks as if he didn’t know what he’s doing, or rather, he didn’t know the world at all.

“It’s a pool with hot water. It’s good for your health if you bath in here,”

“Can we swim?”

The man chuckles. “No, Jaejoong. It’s too shallow to swim.”

Jaejoong nods his head. As if he understands. Yunho look at them one by one. He never saw the tall man before and he’s sure that Jaejoong never had a friend like him. So maybe Jaejoong met him after they broke up? Is he Jaejoong’s new lover?

It’s come again. The jealousy. He didn’t know why he feels like this even though he’s a married man. Jaejoong is not his business anymore and he shouldn’t care about it, right? Right? But didn’t know why, the thought of Jaejoong has a new lover hurt him to death. And to top with that, Jaejoong seems didn’t know him. He sure has moved on.

“It’s too hot. Can we add in some cold water?”

“No, Jaejoong. We can’t.”

Jaejoong pouts. “Then, why are we here?”

“We’re here to take a bath,”

“In a hot pool?”

He laughs. “No. It’s not a pool, Jaejoong,”

“Jaejoong?” he tilted his head.

The tall man nods as he shows Jaejoong his own wrist. “Jaejoong. Your name is Jaejoong.”

Jaejoong look at a bracelet on his wrist before he smile cheekily. “Right. I am Jaejoong.”

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Yunho step inside his office room. He put his bag on the chair when something caught his eyes. The box wrap nicely and lovingly on his table. He takes it and observes it for a while. He sits down on his chair as his other hand push a button on the phone.

“Yes, sir?” his secretary answer him.

“What is this present on my table?”

“Oh, that. Someone gave it to me just now. He said it is for you, sir,”

“Who is that? You know him?”

“I’m afraid no, sir. He wears a snow cap over his head,”

“Snow cap in spring? Anyway, thanks.” And he hung up.

Curious, Yunho unwrap the gift before he opens the box. It reveals a nice and expensive looking watch. A note patch on the other side.

~ Happy anniversary, Yunho.

                                    Love, Jaejoong. ~

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Yunho braved himself to knock on a door not far from his room. His wife is in the sauna, alone and chit chatting with the owner’s wife. And here he is not only didn’t accompany his wife but choose to meet his ex-lover. Whatever the course is, he determined to see him and know what hell is going on.

The door opens. Yunho startled a bit when the tall man stands in front of him rather than Jaejoong.

“Yes? May I help you?”

“Uh...is Jaejoong in?”

“You know Jaejoong?” the other seems surprised.

Yunho rubs his neck, nervous. “Ye...yeah,”

“Come in then,” he invited.

Yunho step in the room. It’s no different with his own. There’s small table in the room. There’s a door at the front and a door at the other side, opens wide. He saw a bump lying down on a mattress in the bedroom.

“Jaejoong is sleeping,” the man says as he sits down at the table.

Yunho sits too in front of him with crossed legs. “Sorry for bothering you this late,”

“It’s okay. I’m sorry too since you can’t see him. I’m Changmin,”

“I’m Yunho.” And they shook hands.

“I’m sorry to ask you this, but what is your relationship with Jaejoong anyway? I never saw you before,” the tall man name Changmin started.

“Uh...I’m...” Sure Yunho is nervous. “We’re once housemate before I got married.”

Changmin’s silence worries Yunho for no reason. He thought that he said something wrong. But later when Changmin nods his head that Yunho sigh in relief.

“Jaejoong said that the only close friend he had is his housemate. It is you then. Glad finally I meet you.”

Yunho smile shortly. “Yeah, glad I meet him too since so long,”

“Since you’re his close friend, I think it is wise to tell you this. I don’t want you to surprise later when you greet him,” Changmin says.

“Huh?” Yunho sure, whatever that come out from this man’s lips is nothing but worse. He has bad feeling about this. Really bad bad feeling.

“Jaejoong is...what should I say this...doesn’t remember you anymore,” Changmin calmly tell him.

Yunho froze. “Doesn’t....remember me?”

He nods. “In fact, he doesn’t remember himself sometimes. Jaejoong has...short-term memory loss illness,”

“What?” Yunho half shout. He doesn’t believe it. Heck, he doesn’t want to believe it.

“I am actually his doctor. Jaejoong had the symptom since three four years ago. And since half and a year ago that he start to lost his memory.” As if it’s not a secret to tell somebody else.

Yunho keep his silent. He doesn’t know what to say. This is too much for him. Jaejoong is not only lost his memory, but also he doesn’t remember anything at all.

“This is not the usual amnesia. A short-term memory loss in Jaejoong’s case is because of trauma and depression. No matter how much you tell him or teach him, he will forget it in a minute or two. That’s why I crave his name on a bracelet, so that he will know what his name is from looking at it,” Changmin continues.

“And that is why I am always by his side. Jaejoong even live with me. He doesn’t have anyone else. And for someone like him, who happen to didn’t know anything, is dangerous to be by his own alone.”

Still the other man keeps his mouth shut.

“His family disown him, he didn’t have many friends, his lover leaves him, and you who are his housemate and close friend also get married. I guess you lost contact after that, right?”

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Ara bid goodbye to the owner’s wife before she step inside her room and close the door. How surprise she is when she saw her husband lying beside the table with bottles of soju around him. She runs toward and hugs him.

“Oppa, oppa what wrong with you?”

“Three four years ago...you know you will have the illness, that’s why you don’t want to let me go?” Yunho slurred. “You come to see me, ask for dinner, give me gift; you want to create the last memory so you won’t forget me?”

He gulps down the soju till the last drop. When he realizes nothing left, he throws the bottle only to grab another bottle.

“Oppa. Don’t drink anymore,” Ara cries as she tries to grab Yunho’s arm.

“Live is so cruel. I got married so I should be the one who forget you first. But why did you didn’t remember me? You not only didn’t remember me, but you also forget our love, our life, our memory.” Yunho sunk deeper. His eyes bloody red as his tears fall to his cheek.

“Oppa...”

Yunho let loose from Ara’s hold as he hugs himself in a cocoon. “I miss you, Jaejoong. I miss you, and I still love you. Jaejoong...”

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