November 2013

It was finally the day... He stood on stage as all spotlight where shinning on him and only him. She looked at him through her iPad paying full attention. Then he began...

" Devoting my youth. The 3 years I ran bare foot "

It was true... It has been 3 years, 3 painful years since the day he told her that he would be joining YG as a trainee. She didn't stop him, instead she was like the others, supporting him. Keeping away the secret she had yet to break to him.

" uh The indifferent Hello with my family and friends, Living days where tomorrow was always anxious I said trust me I will surely succeed " 

Time passed, they spent lesser and lesser time together, it wasn't his fault, he didn't even have time for his family. They slowly become distant, those long conversations where cut short. From those "Baby good night, sleep well and dream of me~" became just a simply goodnight or sometimes none. Those face to face conversations or long hour phone calls were eventually skipped.

" Not only mine, But the life of 5 people I carried on my shoulder. Searched for opportunity I had to endure A lot of pressure and failure  Wanting to see the light now I walked the future  God asked me Will you not regret  Without hesitation I will answer Why would i regret  The thing left after this stage is Probably success or falling behind I put my all  My determination  That has to be different "

She understood, she understood all his pain. Being the leader of the team was never easy, the burderen he carried was way too big. They tried to talk him out of it or give him encouragements, he never listened and just brushed it off... 

But finally, she saw him there, on stage alone, looking just as handsome as he always was. She held on tight onto her iPad as tears rolled down her cheeks, smiling with her pale lips, using whatever strength left inside of her to just sit up and watch him finally on stage. Did he know about her watching over him? Maybe, maybe not. Maybe he forgot all about her, or to him, she simply wasn't worth it. But it was always ok to her, like always, as long as he was happy, she didn't mind.

It was then her head began to hurt as her world eventually became a world of darkness...