Lately I have been so tired, like abnormally. 

I am always tired because I have borderline insomnia , but lately it has really been weighing me down a lot.

It leads me to questioning how healthy someone like me is, but I have a irrational fear of doctors so I can never bring myself to see one. Maybe I should take something for such a problem? 

My eyes are really puffy when I wake, but for some that is normal, right? So I force myself not to worry much about it. Then my ribs are much more sencitive then they were before and aswell as that, my strength has weakened. It is troublesome. Friends on mine are starting to question me. I hate it. I am nothing much to worry about. It is only like this for now. I will slowly get better. I always find away.

Optimistic is far from who I am, but I have been trying. 

On a non depressing note, I am madly inlove with Infinite's Hoya. What an amazing dancer I think. Very good singer and rapper additionally. Love him!!!