Just because of him, I smile ten times more often. I bet he has no clue that when he hugs me, my heart flutters and I really don't want to let him go. If I said that I liked him, I am sure I would face rejection. It is hard to keep my feelings to myself. I want to hold his hand, kiss his cheeks. Feelings are complicated. Sometimes I would rather be emotionless then like him the way I do. I am contemplating avoiding my feeling for a long time. I think we need to seperate for a while. But... Maybe after tomorrow. I don't want to let yesterday be the last time I give him valid emotions. I like him, but sometimes it is better to push that out of the picture and pretend you don't.