this really isn't hinted to anyone pls
rachelbby, your blog just got me thinking tbh
and i went on tg again and i just feel like i have to say something

please just understand that i left roleplaying not because i wanted to
but i had to. 
when a world of internet takes over your real life
and it gets so unhealthy
and you're ing crying over every single thing
do you know how much it kills me
i want to go on and tweet too
but
it's taking over my life
for a few months, i forgot i was stephanie
and just played the role of f(x)'s sulli,
iu.
but really,
how much is too much 
when you forget real life

please, i'm not asking you to 
feel sorry for me or pity me 
but 
please just hear the side of my story
roleplaying right now
is toxic to me

do you know things that normally make me happy no longer make me happy
because i keep worrying over the internet. 
i almost had a panic attack in school because 
i couldn't stop thinking
i just have to leave. 
that's my problem
i'm too attached
and virtual life isn't real life
that's what i keep forgetting

don't tell me i have a choice because 
i ing don't
i can't and i won't sit around and wait for 
the internet to ruin my life

it's so tempting to go back on
because i haven't deactivated my accounts
but i'll do it for real now 
 

p.s. don't think it's easy for me to just leave all of you behind

i don't deserve your tears
 

and if you say i was always there for you,
just this once
try to see it from my point of view.

also i didn't just leave tangled
i left paper stars
i deactivated my personal account
please just let me try to live my real life.