Hello everyone! 

Next week I am flying to Alicante In Spain and then have to drive to La Marina..... Where I will be staying for 2 weeks in a villa..... 

Only problem .... I have a massive phobia of flying....I have only ever been able to fly a few times and all those times I have had panic attacks before I step foot on the plane and one time I was crying and panicking so bad that the flight attendants took me on the plane first and let me speak with the captain..... He spoke to me and let me know I was going to be okay... Which that flight was ... But I have been having nightmares every night all the same... The plane crashes and my mum and brother are dead and I'm alone in a country I can't speak the language of.... 

I know I'm stupid because apparently it's the safest way of travel.... But with the plane crashes recently it's not happing my situation....

i am just trying to think of the sunny sunshine and how I'm going to get a nice tan... And lose my vampire-ness *sobs* oh and the fit boys..... Heheheh got to say it though...

and I am hoping to get drunk at least one night of the holiday !! 

FIGHTING TO ME!!!