-Hana POV- my first love shattered into pieces. thats the perfect sentence to describe it all. kim taehyung. he was my first of everything. its been 1year since the “Accident” happen. its all start in our usual day together. *flashback 1 year ago* *3rd person POV* “psst.. taetaeee wake up” Hana pinch taehyung cheeks trying to wake him up “5 more minutes Hanaa” taehyung take his blanket and roll over, he always do this every single day. “well then, YOU MADE ME NO CHOICE” hana suddenly jump into the bed and tickle taehyung all over his body, taehyung laugh so hard and trying to let go of hana. “FINEE FINE” he screamed. “ and hana straight agaain folks!” hana laughed happily, when unexpectedly a pair of lips crashed into her. hana blushed like a bright red tomato. “hahaha look, you blushed just like that” taehyung laugh sign of revenge. hana was so embarrassed and playfully punch taehyung’s chest. “aah taetaee i’m going to bring you lunch today! is that okay?” taehyung shook his head. “no way! thats embarrassing!” taehyung never do anything couple like with hana infront of bangtan boys he afraid hana’s childish cute act will embarrassed him. every single day always done like this, followed after breakfast by hana and quick peck by taehyung. but day by day something was different its like taehyung is putting a distant between their relationship he always come home late and only answers hana’s question with a single word. hana’s pov* TODAY IS TAETAE BIRTHDAAAAY what should i do what should i do i run happily towards a cake shop near our apartment i buy a mini ice cream cake like his favourite i wrote this on top of the cake “——————————————“ aigooo its a bit cheesy kekekeke he always came home late lately *beep beep* eeeh, taetae called me! well thats unusual. “Hana, where are you?” “in min’s apartement! don’t worry i’ll be back soon” i lied, hehehe i’m going to surprise him! i go back to the apartment. i twist the door knob “tae-“ is someone here? this red highheel aren't mine.. * i prefer pink sneakers keke* could it be.. nonono hana you have to trust your boyfriend! i go to our room the door is open a little tehee lets surprise him a bit I jump inside the room “ HAPPY BIRTH-“ what i see is topless taehyung kissing a girl passionately my heart skip a beat. my mind is blank. i “ oppa! we should do this more often! i’m better rightz? your girlfriend look like a little brat” “ ofcourse babe, you’re way hotter” those sentence broke me my blood start rushing. i open the door. “ WHAT THE FUC- ha hana?” taehyung immediately push the girl away my eyes are all blurry tears start falling down through my cheeks. taehyung don’t say a single word. “ Happy birthday taetae” *taehyung Pov* i do something i shouldn’t have do it. its all my fault. maybe what i want is something different i’m kinda tired of hana’s cute innocent act i met yoona on a club she’s way mature and i should say hotter than hana. it is fun me and hana never go further than kiss but still i felt theres something missing. hana’s not home i’m bored i decide to called yoona we dicided to do something fun. someone open the door “WHAT THE FUC- ha hana?” i immidietly push yoona over. she stand theres her eyes are all teary. this is the first time i saw her crying. she always smile even if she's mad i froze. this is bad. what’s that? she’s holding a.. box of cake? “happy birthday taetae” she smiled and drop the cake. i immidietly jump from the bed and reach her wrist right before she leave. her cute smile and red tomato cheek is gone. her skin is pale she blanked. “ha…hana so..sorry” i don’t know how to convince her she don’t say anything tears keep running from her eyes she softly let go of my hand my cheek now turn bright red and stings “ hehee Hana straights again!” she forced her smile and run. my knee start collapse thats probably the last smile she would give to me. what have i done? my vision start blurry. i lose it all her smile her laugh its all my fault. i told yoona to go home and never call me again. i took hana’s box of cake and open it. “ happy birthday puppy taetae! i love youuu” tears start coming out from my eyes my heart hurt i almost can’t breath. i tried to call her but of course she won’t pick it up next morning she came home her eyes are all swollen “don’t worry, i’m just packing my stuff” my biggest nightmare she really going to leave.. no she already pack everything all it left just her sweet scent around the house tears. what the hell have i done? god gave me someone who i need the most and i threw it away. “well this is it, goodbye v-sshi hope you the best luck” again her eyes start blurry, her smiles hurt me. she never called me v never even once. *Hana POV* taehyung hold my wrist. he’s crying “ha..hana don’t leave.. i love you, me and that girl are over, your my only girl, my one and only forgive me” he sob … funny, what i felt is only anger after hearing that “why? am i too cute or too innocent for you? that girl is mature and hot right? you even too embarrest to show me around your friend, i love you with all my heart, i care for you. i bet you're shock seeing me like this right? i’m also a human. i can feel pain and cry, but i don’t want you see i’m sad thats the reason i always smile around you. i love you. or maybe i USED to love you, good bye v-sshi” i harsly let go of his hand he yelled my name i will never turn back. run hana run. i run to my car and left. thankyou for everything tae tae. 1 year later * taehyung’s POV* “ v hurry uup” j-hope yelled at me. its been 1 year since hana left my side because of me i can’t forget her, this is karma for me. we’re going to SMENT today collaboration with EXO i’m so nervous because they are so cool and popular. we arrived we were told to go to the 7th floor We saw them they all greet us and so do we we talked about 2 hours “ i’m hungrrryy” baekhyung hyung cried “ don’t worry she’ll be here any minute” suho hyung said. “ who’s “she” i asked “ my girlfriend, she always bring lunch for ME, and when they tasted her cook they eat ALL OF IT thats why she bring more” kyungsoo hyung stared at them all exo member laugh. “LUUUUUNCH” thi.. this voice hana? “MY SAVIOR!” baekhyun hyung immediately ran to her and hug her. “ye..yelp” she squeak “ YAH BACON SHE’S MINE” kyungsoo hyung yelled what? hana is the one they talked about she’s kyungsoo hyung girlfriend? how can she forget me already i breath heavily. my eyes are all on her she’s become more beautiful her hair grew longer one thing i know, she’s not mine anymore “ aah, i’m being rude, anyeonghaseyo Hana-imnidaa” she bowed. she definetly saw me she smiled at us but her smile disappear when she look at me but why is she looking at me like i was no one “ahh, kyungo here’s your lun-“ all exo member rush to get kyungsoo hyung meal box “I GOT THE PASTA” sehun scream “I GOT THE BURGEER” baekhyun hyun hop “ and i got nothing” kyungsoo hyung pout. “ mi-mianhae kyungo..” hana look down kyungsoo hyung smiled and kiss her cheek now its bright red like a fresh tomato “ i’m full” he smiled to her i miss her blush now she’s blushing not because of me she blushed for other guys. she look happy she smile even wider that should be me the one who make her blush i’m the only guy she give her care i’m the only guy she love why don’t i brag her to my friends how amazing my girlfriend is when i still have her why i never let her bring me lunch? now she’s giving lunch for other guys WHY DO I JUST REALIZE IT NOW. i can't look at this anymore tears. this is what i deserve after what i did to her