"Winwin, Wintot, Winter Amethyst Kim sige na please sumama ka na sa Team Building natin ikaw lang ka close ko sa team huhuhu"  Yan agad ang bungad sakin ng self proclaimed best friend ko daw na si Ningning or Ning for short. Oh well I think best friend ko naman siguro sya kasi magkasangang dikit (her word not mine) na kami ever since High school. Siya lang din naman ka close ko talaga and I can say na I'm comfortable enough to confide my problems with her and vice versa. So ito na nga si OA may paiyak iyak effect pa habang kausap ko sya sa phone. 

"Ning ayaw ko nga talaga, ang layo at ang mahal pa ng contribution alam mo naman nagtitipid ako diba?"   sagot ko sa kanya

"Teh ang kuripot mo talaga, wala ka namang jowa para pagka-gastusan nyang limpak limpak mong salapi"   ayun na-isingit na naman pagiging single ko hay buhay.

"sige na baby"

Ew! Ning yucks wag mo nga ako mababy baby kilabutan ka nga"  Tumawa lang ito na parang baliw loka-loka talaga 

"HAHAHAHA my gosh Wintot ayaw mo talagang binibaby ka no, when the time comes na makakahanap ka ng katapat mo bes good luck na lang siguro"  

"Never mangyayari yan Ning, no offense to those who uses that endearment but badoy sya for me, so it's a big no" 

"Never say never beshy ko maybe one of this days makikita mo na ung magba-baby sayo" sabi pa nito sabay tawa na naman na parang bruha , ah basta ayaw ko lang talaga na tinatawag akong baby. Ning and I talked for more than an hour grabe napagod ako sa kanya pero masaya din kasi sya kausap, she even almost forgot her initial reason why she called which is our Team building and yeah di nya talaga ako napilit and she decided na di na lang din daw sya sasama, bruha talaga. 

I'm happy with where I am and what I am doing right now, I've been solo living for the past 6 years here in the Metro. Born and raise in Leyte since taga Leyte si Nanay but I opted to explore here in the City kasi sabi nga nila maraming opportunities and so far ok naman. Ayaw ako payagan ni nanay lumuwas kasi di ko naman daw need magtrabaho at kayang kaya akong buhayin ng mga paupahan namin, yes we do have properties for rent be it residential or for business. Pero I stood my ground talaga and gumawa pa ko ng powerpoint presentation that time explaining why I needed this experience at napapayag ko sya obviously since I'm here "struggling" 

I've never been in love, crushes maybe pero ako yung tao na once nakilala ko na ung crush ko ang bilis ko ma turn off. Like makakita lang ako ng habit nung tao na di ko gusto biglang "poo!!"f wala na di ko na sya crush. That kind of crush na mababaw lang talaga, everyone close to me knows my gender preference as well di ko naman kasi tinatago yun I don't care if may masasabi sila sakin that's their opinion naman and as long as wala naman akong nasasaktan so bahala sila. 

I like women.... 

Naalala ko pa dati nung na naging aware ako and nung sinabi ko sya kay nanay, kasi di man lang  nagulat niyakap nya lang ako and nag thank you for sharing it to her daw. Tapos nag-iyakan lang kami nun after kasi, I was just really thankful na she accepted me for who I am. 

I really admire  nanay and I aspire to be like her, she's a single mom pero nakaya nya kaming itaguyod magkakapatid. I have 2 other siblings and I'm the youngest, Si Ate Taeyon and Kuya Key. Pareho silang nasa Leyte and they are the one's who manages the business. I'm thankful for them as well for letting me explore first sabi nga nila I should experience daw the things I wanna experience. Pero ngayon isa na sila sa mga nangungulit sakin na lumabas labas man lang daw, pano daw ako magkaka-jowa kung nasa bahay lang ako. Before wala pa silang pakialam kasi lumalabas naman ako para pumasok sa office so meron pa rin daw akong mga nakakasalamuhang tao. Pero ever since we have this Work from home set-up mas lalo na nila akong kinukulit. 

Lumalabas naman ako during rest day ko since I love running so every weekends I run around McKinley or BGC. I do groceries na din after my runs then go home after. I tend to do things alone, being an introvert I dearly valued my alone time which is almost 80-90% of my days. It may sound boring and lonely but I was ok, yes was, before, past tense. 

Right now I have this gnawing feeling in my stomach every time I eat alone, or when I space out I'm not sure if it's loneliness slowly kicking in my system kasi I'm turning 29 this year and next year I'm on my