Why can't you love me?

With Open Arms

Guys! I'm so so sorry that I haven't updated since like yesterday or the day before e_e but I've been having writers block /.\ lol well this chapter is also short, but I thought it was better than anything so I decided to post it while I begin working on a longer chapter right now o= please comment like always and thanks xD 

Suho POV

This wasn’t what Suho meant when he told Daniel to make him forget Kris. However as Daniel tenderly kissed him, it made him realize just how much he missed this.

There was a slight anticipation as Daniel slowly slid his fingers across Suho’s arm, and the warmth was comforting.

“I really like you Suho” Daniel breathed in between kisses

“I…I like you too” Suho whispered, and deep down he knew it was true somehow.

The brown haired boy smiled “You do?”

Suho nodded and smiled back “Yes I like you Daniel”

Daniel kissed him again, and Suho couldn’t help but give in.

The bed creaked under their sudden weight, and Daniel slowly took his shirt off.

“Are you sure about this?” he asked suddenly concerned

Suho nodded again “Yes I’m sure”

Daniel placed both of his hands on either side of Suho’s face, and laid another soft kiss.

More kisses followed as they slowly began undressing each other.

In the mist of kissing, Suho’s phone suddenly began to ring, and they both stopped and stared at each other.

“Aren’t you going to answer it?” Daniel breathed

Suho bit his lip “I don’t want to…”

“But what if it’s from the hospital?”

Daniel rolled on his side, and gave Suho the small white cell phone.

“Hello?” Suho answered

“Mr. Kim?...Oh thank God you answered” It was Amy

“What’s wrong?” Suho asked a bit concerned by the tone in her voice

Daniel stared at him curiously

“I’m so sorry to bother you sir, but…Mr. Wu just woke up”

Suho’s eyes widened and he felt Daniel’s fingers wrap around his own

 “What?...” he whispered suddenly unable to breathe

“Sir I haven’t told him that you’re here, but I would suggest coming as quickly as possible…he’s having an emotional breakdown and I have no idea what to do” Suho could hear panic in the red head’s voice

“I’ll be there in a bit” he stood up from the bed

The call ended, and Suho began frantically dressing himself again.

“What happened? Was it the boy’s?” Daniel asked

“No…Kris woke up, and I need to go. I’m so sorry”

Daniel smiled “Don’t need to be sorry. Here” he handed Suho his sweater “I’ll take you to see him”

Amy POV

“Mr. Wu please don’t” Amy said as she tried to make Kris stop from ripping the needles that were inserted into his arm.

“Let go!” The blonde man hissed angrily

I shook my head “No I’m sorry sir, but I can’t let you leave”

“You can’t tell me what to do” he snapped

“I know sir but…”

“You’re just my secretary nothing more, and I won’t take any orders from you” he pushed her arms away, and stood up

The medicine’s seemed to still be working because he stumbled a bit as soon as he stood up

“Sir be careful” Amy helped him

They both only made it as far as the red sofa, before Kris had to sit down.

“Why are you here? You have no obligation to be here right now”

I fidgeted with my fingers nervously “I’m not the only one that’s here” she whispered

Kris narrowed his eyes “What?”

“Sir…Kris…I need to tell you something” Amy sat down next to him “There is someone who came to see you, but I just want you to know beforehand that this might be a bit overwhelming”

Kris looked at her, and she knew that he was extremely confused however he suddenly changed the topic

“I’m most likely moving away”

“What?”

“This isn’t helping like I’d hoped”

“What…what isn’t helping?”

He looked at her “Did I ever tell you why I moved here?”

Amy shook her head. She’d heard about the divorce and a few other things, but he had never explained exactly what happened.

“I was married before I came here, and I had ten teenage boys…ten teenage boys who now hate me for what I did”

Amy bit her lip

“I cheated on Suho, and like a coward I ran away trying to avoid everything. New York was the place I decided to live in so I didn’t have to ever see them again, but I never thought I’d miss them so much”

“Why don’t you go back?” Amy’s voice broke without her meaning to

“I don’t deserve to go back”

“Then stay here…” she whispered

-What the hell are you saying Amy?-

Kris looked up at her “Stay here? Why would I?”

-Please don’t leave…Amy just stop he belongs with Suho-

“No nothing, I’m sorry”

He smiled a weak yet beautiful smile. Amy hadn’t seen him smile in a long time, and this made her chest feel like it was crushing.

She tried to convince herself that this was the best way.

-You can’t love him…-

“Thank you”

“Eh?” It caught her off guard

He smiled again, but this time with more energy “Thank you, for not leaving me…”

-Don’t…don’t be selfish Amy…-

“You’re welcome” she whispered struggling to keep herself composed

“You…you love me don’t you?” he asked, his smile disappearing and being replaced with a serious expression

There was a moment of silence as Amy tried to answer, but her voice wouldn’t seem to cooperate

Kris smiled once more “Anybody would be honored to have you as their girlfriend Amy, but…”

-Don’t say it…please don’t…I want to leave-

She stood up

“I need to call someone” she began walking, but Kris grabbed her wrist and turned her around.

“I’m sorry I can’t love you, but…”

“Why can’t you love me?” her eyes swelled up with tears

“You’ve been here for the last two years, and never left even when I acted like a jerk, but Amy just know that I’m not a good person…You will find someone better”

Amy bit her lip as she tried hard not to cry “Are you not a good person just because Suho told you so?. Is that why you do all this to yourself? Do you really think that this will help repair everything you did to your family?”

Kris let go of her wrist

-No…No I’m so sorry-

“I’m so sorry, please forgive me. I just can’t control my feelings and…I’m so sorry” her tears spilled out

The blonde man stood up and wrapped his arms around her

“You’re right; it won’t help if I don’t do anything. Please don’t cry. I’m the one who should be saying I’m sorry to you…to Suho and the kids.”

Amy could feel her chest becoming more and more number by the second

“I thought that if you went with him, you’d be happy…That you would stop hurting yourself and doing all these things. That if you were happy then I’d be happy too, but this hurts too much” her lower lip trembled

-You can’t go back on your word Amy…not now-

“What are you talking about?” he looked down confused

Amy was about to explain about how she was the one who had told the nurse to call Suho here, and how she was trying to get them both back together despite her feelings for him, but the door suddenly opened.

Kris turned to see who it was, and Amy saw his expression twist into a mixture of fear and something unrecognizable.

Amy didn’t have to turn around to know who it was, but she did anyways. However Suho wasn’t by himself and as she turned around, she saw a familiar looking boy behind him.

“Suho?...” Kris blurted out in panic

“Daniel?...” Amy whispered as she stared wide eyed at the familiar face she hadn’t seen for quite some time. 

 

-bows down in apology- I'm such a horrible author because I leave you guys with cliff hangers all the time QwQ and don't even update that fast, but I'll try better D8 I can already hear my cousin yelling at me to update c8 I'm sorry Elizabeth xD I will update as soon as possible c= so please let me know what you think and I'll go write the next chapter for now o.o

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ephemeral24
2460 streak #1
Chapter 24: for real, not everyone is given 2nd chances, Kris was very lucky to have one ang nice to see that he hasn't wasted it so far... he got his family back, that's nice too :)

i love this story, i love that it tackled forgiveness and all, in the end, the choices you make are yours, whether you'd regret it or not would be all on you... but those that we'll surely regret are the choices we don't make :)
ephemeral24
2460 streak #2
Chapter 23: Suho and Kris asking for permission to go on dates from the kids! HIHIHIHI
and Suho acting like a teenager as he retells what he's done with Kris to the kids

as much as there may be other people who disagree with Suho's decision to forgive Kris, but nothing we can do since the Suho of this au chose to forgive him, after loving him still after all this time and feeling and seeing the change in Kris and believing that Kris wouldn't dare do that to him again... it's his choice and since the Suho of this au is the one who'd live with it, in the end, it's really all up to him

Kris saying that he was so stupid and that Suho was too good for him... better late than never idiot! and not all are given 2nd chances, please don't waste it ever again
ephemeral24
2460 streak #3
Chapter 22: Lay's "oh no... you deserved more than that" resonates with me so much in this fic! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

never knew he had that of a special connection with Kris tho... idk if i commented on it before, but if not, i just wanna say that this chapter's title is so beautifully apt :)
ephemeral24
2460 streak #4
Chapter 21: THANK YOU DANIEL!
for squeezing out something much more meaningful than an apology from Kris

in the end, time apart was what they needed for Kris to atone for his sins and get his together, the rest of the family also needed to get over the initial anger then sort out their feelings for Kris as well... Suho has said himself that he still loves Kris, but he's gotta have to work much harder to get that trust that he broke back...
ephemeral24
2460 streak #5
Chapter 20: Suho thinking if that was the same way he held the mistress before, things as serious as that when left hanging can haunt you for a long time...

Kris's way of apologizing, if that was ever considered one,
ephemeral24
2460 streak #6
Chapter 19: years later, the make me forget abt him part still affects me so damn much... i knew they would take that route, and just... ugh thank god nothing further than kisses and making out happened... just, i don't feel like it's the wisest decision
ephemeral24
2460 streak #7
Chapter 17: as much as i pity the state Kris has been in since he left Suho and the kids, what can we do, he did it himself... but istg, taking anti depressants with alcohol, he's really just waiting for death then huh?
ephemeral24
2460 streak #8
Chapter 15: oh Kai... precious Kai
ephemeral24
2460 streak #9
Chapter 14: Kris is lucky Narae's parents only sent her far away and didn't sue him lol

at this moment, Kris sure deserved to wallow is the misery and emptiness he's feeling coz of everything he did

idk if i mentioned it when i read this before, but Kai's desire to not lose his family, is what made him forgive Kris instantly... should be surprising that out of all the kids, he was the one most affected by the issue, yet he was the only one who wanted to keep contact with Kris... but Kai's love for the family that they had was above everything else for him... such a sweet child
ephemeral24
2460 streak #10
Chapter 10: yup, this Narae has got to be the most despicable character to ever grace the KrisHo au...

and yes, seems like Suho isn't as weak as Kris thought... if anything, Kris was the weaker between the two since it was him who couldn't even stop his wrongdoings and be honest to his husband... he took the coward way of hiding... and look what it did to Kai and now, the prolonged affair gave some sort of courage to this little girl... Kris should've known better