WC. 

"For once, Kenny.. I wanted to be selfish. I gave everything you wanted even if it hurts me." I said while crying. "And if being selfish means being with Avi, I'll gladly claim that title for myself because I want her, Ken." She looked away. 

"I want her to be with me so bad, it hurts.." I cried, and cried, and cried. Siya rin ay iyak pa rin ng iyak. 

"Ang hirap naman kasi ng hiling mo, Ate." She answered. "Pero as much as I like her, I knew she was inlove with someone else.." She says then look at me. She's also crying.. oh how it breaks me to see you cry, Kenny. I am so sorry. 

And once again, I pulled her into a hug. This time, it's much tigher than the last one, para hindi niya na ako matulak palayo. 

I brushed my hand into her hair, trying to calm her down, and just wanting to comfort her the way she needed. I'm glad we had this talk, kahit na parehas kaming nasaktan. 

I can't keep on lying to myself, to her, and to Avi. There are times where I get really moody when I see them together, and I blame myself for it because I gave up my chance without even trying. 

Pero ngayon, I'm never letting this chance go pero dahan dahan lang. Hindi naman kailangan madaliin. I have to take care of Kendall pa rin, dahil she was too broken about this and I understand. 

I'm just glad it didn't break us apart. At kapag okay na ang lahat, Ken and I will talk to our Mommies about this, dahil alam kong nakakahalata na rin sila, inaantay nalang din siguro na kami ang lumapit ng kusa. 

"Ate loves you forever, Ken. I love you. Pahinga ka, babawi ako sa'yo bukas." Tumango lang siya sakin at napangiti naman ako dun. I kissed the top of her head and her cheeks like our usual routine. "Goodnight." Sabi ko na lang at lumabas na sa kwarto niya. 

Pagkapasok ko aa kwarto ko, agad akong naiyak not because I'm hurt, but it's because I was happy. Oo, nasaktan pa rin naman ako, pero mas lamang sa akin ang masaya dahil okay na kami ni Kenny, hindi ko na kailangan magsinungaling at mag-panggap na okay ako, tapos alam kong gusto pa rin ako ni Avery. 

Humanda ka sakin, Avi! Kapag okay na si Kendall, tayo naman ang magtutuos. I'm a bit mad at her 'cause she gave Kenny false hopes with those dates, kaya mas masakit sa part ni Kenny 'yun. But before judging her, I'll hear her out. She might have an answer on everything I'm curious about.

Kinaumagahan, mas maaga akong gumising para makapag-prepare ng breakfast namin ni Kenny. Later pa ang pasok namin, 10AM dahil vacant naman ang first subject. 

I cooked pancake lang tocilog for breakfast, this K