i was back after a long years i've been not able to personally guide my child!

its been a long while. i had keep it for a long time cause leeteuk hyung will be terribly mad at me if i took hyukjae back! but i must tell him the truth right now. i cant hide it forever. 

i was just fourteen when i got pregnant by my first love who was happen to be nineteen . our parents force us to break apart , his parent made him to go to another country while i was left behind with hyukkie growing inside me.

teukiee hyung take me in order to repay his kindness i took care of sungmin . his son to kangin. 

teukie hyung hid me from my raging parents.they would surely made me abort my baby but i cant let that to happen. after months i gave birth to a very beautiful baby and i name him eunhyuk! a jewel! but then a realization hit me.! how could i make my baby live a life that was free from pain if i cant even know how to raise him on my own! teukiee hyung said he would take care of hyukkie for me.! if i would give hyukkie to him. even i dont want to ! i gave my son to him! at nights i was crying knowing my son just know me as his "hyung"! i want him to call me umma! to be clingy to me like he always does to teukk