Chapter 3: Of Sad, Unwavering Faith & Fuschia Pink Chapter 3 Theme Song: Sad Tango by Bi/Rain     ♥♥♥     How could they let me be the last one to choose the envelopes or in other words...they didn't let me choose. Ugh. DUH! How is this fair? And how does Hyungsikkie always gets treated like a prince? He and Jihyun...they're always given the best of everything...like the best spot to date, the most romantic shots, the best background musics. Yeah, I always hang out with the crews and learn a  thing or two about their works besides watching them edit the show. It's much more interesting than spending time with girls that doesn't interest me. Why should I pretend to like them if I don't really feel sincere about it? Wouldn't it hurt them more if they fell for me because they confused my manners towards them as feelings? If only they try to think logically, I'm way better than those other so called romantic 'hypocrites' gentlemen they praise time and again.   Jihyun...why do I like her? Why? Do you think it's really because we live at the same area? Do I look that stalker-ish? I just like her. Why? Do I need a reason? I only said what I said on the first day because I needed to give a reason. The truth is, I only agreed to this show because I got an information leak that she would be in this show. Don't ask how, I have my connections. Haa. Can't you see how friendly I am? And no, that does not count as stalking. Our leader Seungho hyung warned me to behave well, but duh...I always behave well. I made it clear to him though, that I would just follow my heart and see it through the end no matter what is the result, even if I don't get anymore offers to appear in shows. You don't get opportunity to date easily as an idol, what more to show your heart to the person you really like in reality? And I'm not going to let this chance be wasted, since I already set my target, clearly. Unlike Hyungsik who just probably like Jihyun simply because he was paired with her in the beginning. And you call that true romance? Give me a break. That guy doesn't even try to open his eyes and ask his heart, who he really likes without taking this stupid pairing methods into account.   Haha, surprise I'm such a romantic at heart? Don't be. I always am. But we don't have to tell that to anyone, do we? Okay. Maybe except for Nam Jihyun, my destiny. I couldn't understand why she would treat the other guys so nicely, but always avoiding me. I remembered a show we did together way back in the past when we're both rookies, and back then she was so nice to me, warm and friendly. What have I done to be pushed away to the curb that I'm not even allowed to come near her now, with all the polite, cold treatment? Is it because I'm not as rich and tall like Hyungsik, or famous and smooth like Jun.K hyung, or fresh like Jaebum? Why? Is Mblaq not famous enough for 4minute? Hey, we're more famous than ZE:A okay. Fact.   Since the beginning, I've kept my faith and keep believing, but now...I'm starting to feel like giving up on these empty hopes. But even when I stop talking about her, the PD and scriptwriters would call me and ask why I suddenly stop talking about it. They'd encourage me to continue what I did earlier because I was doing the best in the show and they loved it. They thought everything I did was purely for entertainment values. They ridiculed my honest feelings. Jihyun might have felt the same way. Maybe she was indifferent because of that. But how would I make her see the truth if they don't even let me near her? It's just unfair that everyone else are changing partners except for them. I've broken three girls' hearts because of her and you're telling me I can't even get one chance. Tell me what is that if it's not unfair?!!!   "Okay Mir, pick up your envelope and we will begin revealing the pairings."   I hate it. Nonchalantly, I picked up the lonely flashy fuschia pink envelope. No way in the hell this is Jihyun's. I bet Jihyun's is the soft pink or blue one. She's romantic, soft pink is a given, and I've read that she likes pink. And blue is also possible, because she's quirky like that, and chill and calm. But red is also possible. She's soft, but feisty and daring at times. And she kept wearing bright red lipstick in her group's recent promotion. This eyesore fuschia is most probably Seungah noona again. Or Jei noona. Hyejeong is too dull to pick this bright glitzy colour. Haha, but it's possible as well, since she's an immatured kid, this colour might appeal to her.   Not Jihyun again, and worst is, I will be stuck with this girl, without any cameraman or crews to keep me entertained.   "Okay, so now, one by one you'll head to the garden over there at the lake. The girls are waiting. Open the envelope and read the message. Don't show your envelope to the girls until after you finished reading the letter inside for about ten seconds. We need to capture their reactions. After that, you can show the envelope to them and your partner will step forward. Is that understood?"   "Ne!" Everyone said in unison.   "Jaebum, you first. Get ready okay?"   I went over to Jaebum kid to get some insight on his letter that might be Jihyun's though there's still a possibility she's still with Hyungsik. I wouldn't be surprised at all if that happens. Darn this fake reality.   "Hey JB, don't you want to practice first? You'd be less nervous."   "Uhh, it's okay Mir hyung. I'd be even more nervous I think."   "Come on, practice makes perfect. You'll do good."   "You think so?"   I nodded with a grin as he opened his red envelope. This kid is easy as french fries to be tricked. Haha. What are you looking at?    "Oppa, let's go! I