Finally it’s here! First of all I’m not satisfied with this part. But I rewrote three times so... I hope it is okay :) Enjoy reading <3

I don’t love you anymore

The words cut fresh in your heart, as if they were a knife blade, stabbing hard.

He could have meant it. You said to yourself, trying to convince the poor soul of yours. It can’t be like this.

You had always debated his love for you, but with a simple sweet gesture from you would forget about it all.

You couldn’t help but to think what you had done. Were you not the one he wanted? Were you, bad for him? What could it be you had done for him to leave you? Even though you knew Baekhyun didn’t share the same strong affection you had for him, but he never said that he didn’t want to be with you.

Now he was saying it clearly that he didn’t love you, that the picture you drew for the both of you was just an illusion, the silhouette of your feelings for him.

It hurt too badly the tears won’t come out. You stood frozen in the middle of the street. You were on your way home, now you didn’t know where to go. Why would you go back if he won’t be there?

The wind passed through you, swinging your hair. You let out a deep breath, rolling your eyes in defeat. You did everything you could be with him. Now, you had nothing else to do.

Your legs started to move on its own. Aimlessly. The street looked the same, people walked on their own way. No one cared to look at you, to wonder why you were walking like a soulless zombie. No one cared about you. No one wanted you.

“Y/N?” You stopped. A pair of shoes approached you. Looking up slowly, all the desperate, agony that you held inside burst out and you fell to the ground crying.

Why was he here? Why did he appear every time you were lost?

Surprised, Taehyung crouched beside you. His eyes wide in alert. You were sobbing hard and he didn’t know what to do. He didn’t have to ask why you were crying. Or why you were walking around, almost didn’t see him in front of you.

He didn’t ask because he knew. He knew how idiot his brother was. Now letting go of his girl because his little brother also loved her.

Taehyung wished he had punched him in the face instead of just grabbing his collar.

You felt long arms wrapped around you, dragging you into the warmth of his body. You clenched on his shirt tightly. For the first time, you wished it wasn’t him. For the first time, you didn’t want him to appear in front of you.

Why couldn’t it be Baekhyun instead of Taehyung?

~~

Taehyung took you to the dorm. No one of the guys said anything. You felt sorry for being a bother again.

“Here.” Taehyung handed one of his hoodie and trousers. It took you a moment before you accepted the clothes.

From crying for two hours, you lost all your energy. Your leg hurt from sitting on them for so long when you were crying in the street. It felt weird and buzzy. Your head hurt and your heart squeezed hard in your chest.

“Thank you.”

“Why him?” Taehyung said suddenly, surprising you. You gave him a blank look. He sighed, running a hand in his hair. “Why do you love him so much? Why him?”

“I don’t know.” You shook your head. Your voice weak and your throat sore “Do you need any reasons for loving someone?”

“He is so mean towards you.”

You nodded, tears filled your eyes again. “But I love him.”

“Can’t you give me a chance, Y/N?”

You looked at him with your mouth open, but nothing came out. Whenever you look at Taehyung, you would think of his brother, couldn’t help but find the resemble of each other. All you could think about is Baekhyun.

“You know that I have feelings for you. For so long actually. Way before you and Hyung went out.” Taehyung was looking straight at your eyes. It was hard to lock eyes with him so you looked away.

You loved Taehyung, really treasured him. But not in the way he wanted. Yet, you could lose him. You didn’t want to hurt him.

“Please, stop Tae.” You said, tears rolling down your chin. “Please I don’t want to hurt you or to lose you. You are my best friend.”

A surprising scoff skipped Taehyung’s lips. “You are kind of selfish Y/N.” He shook his head, hurt smeared on his expression. Your chest ached for making him look like that. “You want me and my brother. You cannot have us both.”

“Taehyung…”

“I can’t be your friend anymore, Y/N. It’s hard to see the girl I love with my own brother. How do you think I feel right now? You always come to me, crying because of him.” Taehyung face was as red as a tomato. You had never thought that he kept all of this to himself. Tears wouldn’t stop falling and your breath hitched with every word he said.

“I… Taehyung… I…”

“Every time you come to me, I want to hold you tightly ask you to forget about him. I hated him for making you cry. I won’t make you cry, Y/N.” but he was already, making you cry. The way your eyes were looking at him wrongfully, made him hate himself. You shouldn’t have been crying like this.

“I’m sorry, Taehyung.”

You stood up to leave. You even were a burden to him, too. He suffered because of you. Even your best friend didn’t want to be your friend anymore. Whenever you try to find a reason for what you had done wrong, you found nothing.

Before you could make it out of his room, he grabbed your elbow, spinning you. His arms wrapped around your shoulders in a hug and you held onto his shirt.

“I’m sorry. I don’t know what I am saying. I’m sorry forget about it all. I’m an idiot.”

“No, I’m an idiot for not knowing how you feel. Don’t say you don’t want to be my friend. What I will do without you.”

“I’m sorry. I said I wouldn’t make you cry, yet you are crying.”

~~

When you had calmed a little bit, Taehyung entered his room, with two cups in his hands. He made funny faces, faking that the cups were so hot for his hands to bear. Chuckling, you helped him and took one from his hands. It was hot chocolate, your favorite drink.

You inhaled the smell of chocolate, which made your stomach groan in anticipation. Sitting beside you, Taehyung was staring at you as you took a sip from your drink. He loved the way your eyes closed as you enjoyed your drink. It made him smile.

He loved you and he couldn’t help it. He told himself that it was okay, even if you didn’t return the same feelings back. As long as he could see you smile, he was okay.

“Did he do something stupid this time?” Taehyung asked and the smile over your face vanished. He regretted asking you.

“We broke up.”

A curse skipped Taehyung’s lips. He pressed them in a thin line when he saw glaring at him, and cleared his throat. “He’s an idiot.”

“He said he doesn’t love me anymore.”

“Does he have a personality disorder? He almost killed me with his glare when I told him that I love you.”

“You told him what?”

Taehyung cleared his throat and looked away from you. “He should know that if he didn’t treat you well, I will take care of you.”

“You are the idiot one.” You shook your head, taking another sip from your drink. A small smile placed on your face. You couldn’t help but to think if Taehyung confessed to you before you fall for his brother, there could be a chance for you to work out.

“So did you believe him?”

You froze for a moment. It was clear enough that Baekhyun was serious about your relationship. He never cared about you, never showed any interest. You quietly nodded.

Taehyung sighed in frustration. “Are you serious?”

“He said it clearly. He never showed that he actually loved me.”

“Believe me, Hyung won’t go out with a girl more than a year if he wasn’t serious. You are his first longest relationship.”

“I hope to be the last.”

“Did you just curse him?”

Taehyung looked at you amused and you shrugged nonchalantly. “Deserve him.”

Taehyung angled his body so that he was facing you. Both of you were sitting on the ground, legs linked beneath you. “He loves you. He’s just too idiot to show it.”

“You don’t know.” You shook your head, not believing him. But there was a part of you wante