Time had passed and today was the day I was going to see my family for the first time in 5 years. I'm happy, yet scared and sad... sad that I can't hug them or talk to them anymore.

-'' Are you ready? '' Kyung So asked me picking up his satchel and placing it over his shoulder, I nodded and picked up my small suitcase.

-'' Yeah, I'm all set '' I said forcing a smile and followed him out of the front door. Out side was a black Ferrari car. I was surprised.

-'' Is this our ride? '' I asked, he turned to me with a smile and gave me nod. I couldn't help but smile in excitement I just stood there staring at the car in awe, Kyung So had already opened the trunk waiting for my suitcase to be placed inside.

-'' Are you just goin' to stand there and stair at the car like an idiot? '' He smiled in amusement, I jumped in excitement and run to put my suitcase in and hurried to the front seat in a flash pulling the seatbelt for safety, he jogged to the driving seat and put his seatbelt on. He started the car and my eyes was full of amazement.

-'' Is this car new? '' I asked looking back and forth. He looked at me and back to the street he focused and grinned.

-'' Yeah, it's new '' He said. I traced my hand on the window.

-'' How much was it? '' I asked and looked at him.

-'' Why? are you going to buy one? '' He giggled. I slapped him lightly on his arm.

-'' No I'm not, forget it... I bet there is no point in asking when I can't afford one '' I said leaning my back on the chair. I looked outside of the window and wondered if D.O was thinking of me all this time. When he saw me for the first time he looked like he remembered me and he looked like he needed to tell me something... but I think it's not a good idea to listen to him when there's nothing to say, after all I'm just a random fan. Without noticing I fell asleep along our way to the airport.

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 What EXO members are thinking

I wonder if I'll meet her again? She lives somewhere in this area I'm sure of it.

I wonder why I bother thinking about her?

I wonder what she's doing now?

What should I do today?

I'm bored...

Where's my credit card?

Should I practice my vocals?... Or... Practice my dancing?...

Se Hun's probably thinking of Kim

Oppa is for girls... and hyung are for guys... I should be able to know that by now...

I miss my little sister...

nega wolf! nega wolf! awoooo!~

cool... cool leader... aaahhhh, I look so cool. I wonder what everyone is thinking about?

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We soon got in the plane and were on our seats. I was sitting next to the window, looking outside thinking of how my family are. -'' Are you okay? '' Kyung So asked me who was playing with his tablet next to me. I looked at him and to his tablet. -'' Yeah... I'm fine... '' My eyes where locked on the game and asked. -'' What are you playing? '' I leaned in closer to have a better look. -'' I'm playing an old game from hell, it's called ~kill them all~ '' He said with his eyes fixed on the screen. -'' What's the game about? '' I asked not taking my eyes off from the screen just like him, he smiled -'' It's about a demon king, who lost his powers and he wants to get it back, for him to get it back he has to kill humans and powerful demons, it's like an RPG, the boss battles are with the demons sometimes angels... so yeah... that's kind of it '' He said and clicked his tongue, I looked at him and leaned back on the seat. -'' How old are you Kyung So? '' I asked, he paused his game and sighed back on his seat. -'' I'm... '' He paused trying to remember his age. -''... I'm 1950 years old, you could say in human age I'm 25 years old, in demon age each year you age 78 '' He ran his fingers over his hair and winked at me. -'' But I still look hot don't I? of course I do '' He smirk to himself, I let out a small laugh. -'' But not when your all demon like '' I muttered, remembering the time when he took his human disguise. -'' for your information, I am one of the most handsome demon in hell '' he said full of confidence, I then rolled my eyes to the window, wondering if he was considered one of the most handsome in hell then how would the most ugliest look like, just thinking of the image in my head felt like I was going to get hunted.

We had a very long flight, but we soon got to our destination, I was nervous but I also wondered if my family still lived in the same area or if they moved... and if my sisters had moved out of the house, or even already got married. We called for a taxi and was heading to visit my parents. -'' Are my sisters still living with my parents? '' I asked while looking out the window trying to see if I still remember the streets that we pass by. -'' We'll see, after all we came here for you to see them and find out right '' He said leaning on the seat while looking at me.

We arrived at my house. We didn't stop at the front because we might look suspicious, when we got out, I opened my suitcase and took out a wig and some contact lenses that I bought before we left Korea and had put them on. -'' What are you doing?... '' Kyung So asked who looked like he didn't like the idea on what I was going to do. -'' I'm going to talk to my parents '' I said while putting the wig on, I started to walk for the front porch but before I could Kyung So said -'' If you get in trouble tear this paper into half and when you do, your parents wont remember you appearing at the door '' He said handing a red piece of paper, I reached out to grab it and he disappeared, I looked around me and he was no where to be seen, I then continued walking towards the front porch and had rang the door bell, I was nervous but excited. Someone had opened the door but I didn't see anyone until I lowered my head finding a small boy, I was puzzled why there was a kid in my house... well my parents house.

Did mom have a baby?!

But then thinking about it my mom was to old to have a baby so there was another possibility. -'' Who are you? '' he asked looking up to me, he looked like he was 104cm... half my size, before I could say anything someone came. -'' Hey buddy, who're you talking to? '' I heard a man's voice and he opened the door wider and it was my sisters boyfriend, but I guess they got married and now have a baby boy, I looked at him and smiled, I was happy to see that they are still going on strong. -'' Why don't you go and entertain grandma and grandpa '' He said watching his little boy run off, he then slapped his hands together. -'' Can I help you? '' He asked. I then remembered that I still didn't know what kind of excuse I was going to use to talk to my parents of to anyone why I was here, but I had to say something before he suspects me -'' I-i... i came to look at this house... '' I said trying to think of what I had to say next before he push me away. -'' see the house? '' He said cooking an eye brow at me, I gulp and continued -'' you see my... my late grandfather use to live here... and you see I wondered where he use to live before... before he moved to a different house... '' I said hoping that he would buy my excuse and let me inside, he looked at me suspiciously, I forced a smile. -'' uh huh... I'll go and ask the owners if they don't mind... '' He said and shut the door, I sighed in relief.

OMG it's been ages since the last I lied... my lying skills are getting rusty.

I then recalled the time that I lied countless times to get money and get out of school, and many other lies to get experience. While I was in my world of the past the door opened. -'' Yeah, you can have a look, I bowed automatically from bowing allot of times when I was in Korea, he looked kind of weird out of what I did but he shrugged it off. -'' Okay... '' He said as I walked in closing the door behind me. When I got in memories started to flow in I was so happy. -'' Your English right? '' He asked me, I turned to look at him and shook my head -'' No, that thing back there... I live in Korea so, it's kind of automatic '' I said not hiding that part, he then nodded. When we entered the living room I saw mom and dad sitting on the sofa, and the small boy sitting on dad's lap, they then noticed me, both my parents looking at me. -'' Hello '' I said and waved my hand, it was awkward as hell, I wanted to stab myself for some reason but instead of doing so I walked to shake there hand just like any other intruder would do. -'' I'm sorry for bother you and your family '' I said reaching my hand to my dad for a shake, he gladly shake my hand and smiled -'' No, it's no problem '' He said, but I know he was just forcing that smile, he doesn't like it when unexpected people come when there are visitors in the house. I reached in for my mom and said sorry. -'' No, it's okay take a seat '' My mother offered. A woman then came into the living room carrying a tray of tea and coffee with cookies. -'' Dad, mom here's your order and for my baby your cookies '' My eldest sister said cheerfully.

She's so old!

I looked at her trying not to laugh. -'' I heard you came to look at the house '' My dad said taking a sip of his tea, I then looked at him and nodded. -'' Ah, yes, I did '' I then looked around -'' It didn't change much '' I said and then looked back at him, he looked at me with suspicion. -'' How would you know, when your late grandfather lived here and I'm pretty sure you weren't born then '' He pointed out.

! what now?

I think fast and found an excuse. -'' My late grandmother had images of the house in every room '' I said hoping that they would buy it. -'' I see... then please take a stroll around '' He said. -'' Would you like to drink something before taking a look? '' My sister asked and picked up her son, I shook my head. -'' No, thank you '' I said and looked at the little boy. -'' Would you like to go along with... '' My sister paused and looked at me -'' Sorry but what's your name? '' She asked. -'' Oh I forgot to mention my name, I'm so sorry, my name is Kim... '' Then I remembered that I should have said a different name, they looked at me with sorrowful expressions. -'' ... Kim...berly, Kimberly '' I said hitting myself inside, I felt gutted seeing them sad. -'' Aunty has the same name grandpa '' the boy said looking at dad, my dad forced a smile and looked at me.

Shut it boy!!

I regret mentioning my name, I'm sure they're still recovering about me disappearing. My sister then waved her hand. -'' Shall we? '' she said, I nodded. -'' Yeah... '' I said looking at my mom and dad, who looked devastated.

I walked down the corridor followed by my sister with her son holding her hand, I entered my mom and dad's room, remembering the time I jumped on their bed countless times, I looked at the window door and remembered that one stupid accident I had, playing hide and seek... out of excitement I ran into my parents bedroom and didn't know where to hide my sister was coming and without thinking I ran trough the window braking it, almost killing myself, I giggled. -'' What's wrong? '' My sister asked, I turned to look at her. -'' I just remembered something '' I said and walked out of the room, I then went into the guest's bedroom. When I opened the door to my room, it was still the same... my things and everything was still organized it was clean like someone was using it. -'' Who uses this room? '' I couldn't help but ask, I could see that she was sad. -'' No one... '' she looked at her son -'' Would you go down stairs for now? '' She said to her son, he smiled and nodded and walked away, she came inside and shut the door and sat on the bed, I followed and sat along beside her. -'' But it looks like someone uses it '' I said my eyes wandering around the room. -'' My mom cleans the room whenever dust piles up, she changes the covers once in every 3 months '' She said trying to hold her tears back. -'' Who used to sleep here? '' I asked even though I knew who it was, I started regretting it though asking her. -'' My little sister... '' As she said those words she started to burst into tears, I wanted to cry but it would seem awkward if a stranger started to cry over something that they don't know. -'' Is that why you guys looked so sad when I mentioned my name? '' I asked, she nodded -'' My sisters name is kind of similar to you, I know that it's stupid telling you this things when you don't know any of this and us... '' She sniffed wiping the tears away, I grabbed her by the shoulder -'' It's okay, you can tell me... I'm a good listener '' I said trying to comfort her. -'' My sisters name was Kim, she disappeared 5 years ago... in Korea... '' She cried louder, I hugged her, my started to sting and tears were about to fall -'' My parents are still traumatized about her disappearing, we miss her so much '' She said trying to hold herself back from crying louder, I petted her on the back -'' Don't hold it in, let it all out... '' I said.

I'm so sorry, you guys are in so much pain because of me, I'm so so sorry.

I started to cry as well hoping that they would forget the pain and move on... for my sake.

When we both calmed down we went down stairs.

-'' what's the name of your son? '' I asked walking in the living room, she smiled and looked at her son who was sitting by the fireplace playing with his to -'' He's name is Mike, I used my sister's name and turned it around and added an ''e'' '' She said. -'' Well my tour has ended, I said walking towards mom and dad giving them another hand shake. -'' This is my aunty '' Suddenly Mike came running towards me with a picture of me. -'' She's pretty isn't she? '' He said smiling, Mom took the picture from mikes and looked at it with a smile. -'' Yeah, she is '' I said, but it felt weird saying I'm pretty to myself even though I said it to myself countless times when I was younger.

It was time for me to go and my brother and law and sister with their son came to see me out, I kneel down to Mike. -'' Be a good boy and don't cause problems for mommy and daddy '' I smiled and poked the tip of his nose, he smiled at me and hid behind his dad's legs poking his head out to the side, I shake hands with my sister and brother and law's hands and bid them goodbye. I didn't spend that much time with my parents but seeing that they were well it was enough for me. -'' You done? '' Kyung So appeared before my eyes surprising me. -'' Holy duck! '' I screamed, I slapped him on his arm -'' Don't do that! '' I added, he laughed -'' How did it go? '' He asked,  I walked away and smiled -'' Yeah, it went pretty well... '' I said.