Disclaimer: I'm so sorry.

First there's the fun of squeezing past masses of people squished together like sardines and sitting side by side by side by side in an auditorium far too small to hold a showcase of Sehun's prowess. This is what Luhan tells his two friends, at least, as he inches forward to their seats in the very middle of the very front. He's on display almost as much as Sehun will be, and Luhan resists a very strong instinct to hide his face—to avoid overly curious gazes; to keep hithe judgement out; protect himself.

Then the lights are down and the curtains up, and Sehun is there and he's absolutely glorious. He moves like no one Luhan's ever seen, and the Chinese student feels so overwhelmed by gratitude that Sehun chose him, that he nearly chokes on his own tears.

The curtain comes back down as Sehun's bowing form is slowly hidden, and suddenly there's a swarm at Luhan's front and back and sides. "What's he like?" they want to know in invasively loud tones that make Luhan flinch. "You're so lucky," they tell him in softly awed voices that don't do enough to hide the envy that's clearly there too. "But why did he choose you? What's so special about you? How could someone like him date someone like you?" They ask this to each other, behind his back, or maybe not at all—maybe that's just what Luhan asks himself, in his head, when the intermission ends and the consuming beauty of Oh Sehun appears again.

A song plays and Sehun dances. Another plays and Sehun's body keeps moving, never losing the rhythm that Luhan's beginning to think is and innate and integral part of Sehun's very being. Luhan doesn't have that natural life beat; he can't dance, can barely sing, and doesn't even like going out dancing because it embarrasses him to see other moving badly.

Thoughts like these swirl around in Luhan's mind as Sehun moves almost like he knows. His body emulates the twists and dips and leaps of Luhan's logic and lack there of such that when the song is over, Luhan doesn't even realize that he show is over too because he's enraptured.

Absolutely, wholly, and completely enraptured. And yet also destroyed, because Luhan knows that there's no way he is enough.

So he leaves with the masses, sneaking out past an entangled Tao and Yixing—they left before the finale to make out in the lobby and probably don't even notice him anyway—and running away. He doesn't go to any of the usual places—the library, his dorm, his and Yixing's favorite bubble tea cafe—and when Sehun looks for him, after, Luhan's nowhere to be found.