141010 [PART 2]

I find it hard. Hard to write. Hard to think. Hard to even breathe.

I saw that link. A rumor, it said. And I've already heard rumors talking about the same , Tao or Lay or both leaving... As I said before, I was not against it. I stil am not against it but.... It hurts a lot if you read it on a news site, I don't believe everything Allkpop /allk-article below/ says but it still hurts to know that there are more chances of that to happen.

Just give me some time to understand... Bad news in the early morning. Bad news in late evening. I want some time to actually 'believe' what's happened in the beginning of the day before having to be slapped in the face again.
Now I can say that I will never get to make that dream come true. NEVER.

I want him to leave. I want him to do what he loves. I want him to do what he dreams of. Being an actor? Action actor? I don't know if this is real and they really reunite again as 4 as a new band, maybe he'd get more chances in the singing field just like in EXO -as a whole- but I think he might get more into acting if he leaves alone and decides to continue his path alone. But... I just realized that if that really happens... I will never see him. For real. Going to Korea is hard. But at least there always were a glimpse of light and I